there goes my hero, watch him as he goes.

no one reads this anyway so i guess its okay to vent.

im so sad. wahaha lame. but i am.

what did i doooo?

agh. i dont want to think that it truly is over. it cant be. im not ready.

please give me a reason to move on because as of now, im hoping that you'll realize that you want me as much as i want you.

i'm sorry if i'm a total bitch but you know i'd do anything for you. anything to be with you.

i never wanted to have to need someone. but i didnt plan this and it sucks!

it sucks to feel like im the only one still in love.

i am horrible. :| haha.

1. Smoked.
2. Consumed alcohol.
3. Slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex.
4. Slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex.
5. Kissed someone of the same sex.
6. Had sex.
7. Had someone in your room other than family.
8. Watched porn.
9. Bought porn.
10. Done drugs.
TOTAL:

1. Taken painkillers.
2. Taken someone else's prescription medicine.
3. Lied to your parents.
4. Lied to a friend.
5. Been to rehab.
6. Done something illegal.
7. Cut yourself.
8. Hurt someone.
9. Been to a club.
10. Seen someone die.
TOTAL:

1. Missed curfew.
2. Stayed out all night.
3. Eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself.
4. Been to a therapist.
5. Snuck out of the house.
6. Dyed your hair.
7. Received a ticket.
8. Been in an accident.
9. Wished someone to die.
10. Been to a bar.
TOTAL:

1. Been to a wild party.
2. Been to a Mardi Gras parade.
3. Drank more than four beers in a night.
4. Had a spring break in Florida.
5. Sniffed anything.
6. Wore black nail polish.
7. Wore arm bands.
8. Wore t-shirts with band names.
9. Listened to rap.
10. Owned a 50 Cent CD.
TOTAL:

1. Dressed Gothic.
2. Dressed prep.
3. Dressed punk.
4. Dressed grunge.
5. Stole something.
6. Been too drunk to remember anything.
7. Blacked out.
8. Fainted.
9. Had a crush on a neighbor.
TOTAL:

1. Snuck into someone else's room.
2. Had a crush on your friend.
3. Been to a concert.
4. Dry-humped someone.
5. Been called a slut.
6. Called someone a slut.
7. Installed speakers in your car
8. Broken a mirror.
9. Showered at someone of the opposites sex's house.
10. Brushed your teeth with someone else's toothbrush.
TOTAL:

1. Consider/Considered Ludacris your favorite rapper.
2. Seen an R-rated movie in theater.
3. Cruised the mall.
4. Skipped school.
5. Had surgery.
6. Had an injury.
7. Gone to court.
8. Walked out of a restaurant without paying/tipping.
9. Caught something on fire.
10. Lied about your age.
TOTAL:

1. Owned/rented an apartment.
2. Broke the law in the police's presence.
3. Made out with someone who had a gf/bf.
4. Got in trouble with the police.
5. Talked to a stranger.
6. Hugged a stranger.
7. Kissed a stranger.
8. Rode in the car with a stranger.
9. Been harassed.
10. Been verbally harassed.
TOTAL:

1. Met face-to-face with someone you met online.
2. Stayed online for 5 hours straight.
3. Talked on the phone for more than 4 hours straight.
4. Watched TV for 5 hours straight.
5. Been to a fair.
6. Been called a bad influence.
7. Drink and drive.
8. Prank-called someone.
9. Laid on a couch with someone of the opposite sex.
10. Cheated on a test.

my four and a half day weekend. :)

okay so wednesday, cam went home with me. ohmygosh, camille. that was so embarrassing! must change our faces. :)) we did our IP. and yes, we met our goal of seven pages. haha!

thursday- i got my card. i'm happy with it already. :) at night, sandro came over and we had crepes. :D

friday, i went to jovy's house for my english presentation. we did.. um.. nothing. :)) alissa, cam, jovy and i just took pictures. haha. so at aroun four, sandro picked me up and we went to eastwood. he ate then we watched a movie. we didn't even finish it. :)) ughh stupid kids. :| hahaha. anyway. met up with nik, sabrina and jacobo after.  walked around, had pizza, walked around some more. :)) then at around nine thirty, sandro's driver came and we dropped nikki in katipunan. "you know me so well." =)) we were supposed to watch click five but it was too late. urgh. so we just picked up sandro's sister and her friend and they brought me home. :D

saturday was my confirmation. yes, i am a confirmandi. :)) it was funny, tita maita was so funny. :)) ian went! yay yay yay! afterwards, we had brunch in pancake house. :D went home, did school work and then watched sydney white with my mom. :D

sunday. well, today sucked. :| had to cram everything and can i just say that i hate doing things for people! ughh irresponsible! :| oh and it was ian's la salle test. :D

okay i'ma go and read damayan now. :)) teacher's day tomorrow! should be fun .:)

♥cara

the weekend, finally! ♥

i am so incredibly, amazingly, wonderfully happy it's a friday.

i'm home though. boo. 

it was my recollection yesterday and might i say it was a good one. better than last year's. i don't know, made me think a lot. mostly about myself and how i've been such an awful person. okay, enough of that. :))

i shall get my grades on friday. and saturday is my confirmation. so i need your prayers. :)

aaaack i'm scared. :| :| my lowest is social studies, i know it. and urgh! i wanted to get an E in spanish but nooo. stupid test! haha.

surprisingly, i really really like filipino. cam and i do. he's so smart and he really makes you think. and also, he really takes time in discussing his lessons, no matter how long it'll take just for us to fully grasp the whole idea of it. plus! he makes you feel so smart! haha!  

had an english spelling quiz today, and dfkdfghkl. i got one mistake and guess what it was. hahaha! not telling, so embarrassing! i'm so stupid. :))

i've typed my english thing and now i shall research for my iw. and perhaps finish my fil essay? then read twilight. i haven't had time to read! i'm so late, i know. and maybe talk to sandro if he gets home early enough. i miss you.

to do this weekend:

[x] english notes

[ ] fil essay

[ ] research for iw

[ ] spanish homework

[ ] read "makato and the cowrie shells"

[ ] study for math quiz on monday

i wanna go out, dammit. haha. might go to sabrina's and help out in her garage sale tomorrow. then rockwell with the others. should be fun. :)

it's poveda's competition tomorrow! good luck, hardcourt! i've seen the dance. trust me, it's hella awesome. :D

okay, going to go now. :)

i cannot believe you had thought such a thing. that's the saddest, most hurtful thing ever. i hope you know that won't happen because never in a million years would i do that to you. or to anyone, for that matter. i'm better than that. i'm telling you now, it's only you. thank you for hearing me out even though that friend of yours is such an asshole to make such presumption and telling you to, yeah. thank you too for being so patient with me in spite of my constant complaints. i hope you know i love you despite all the things i have said and done. and that you mean more to me than you can ever imagine; more than i could ever show you.

 i love you, okay?

twenty things i would like to say to people.

this is from camille marguarite puzon. is that how you spell it? HAHA. :D

1. you're amazing, and i'm so so happy we finally got to be close. i never thought we would be. it's great how i can tell you anything and everything. thank you for keeping them and i hope you know that you will always, i mean ALWAYS have me to turn to. :)

2. i am very happy for you. finally, you've moved on. you deserve nothing but this happiness. :)

3. i have no idea how you are. frankly, i miss you.

4. i miss talking to you. we used to have so much fun, growing up sucks.

5. ohmygosh. i cannot imagine my life with you. you make everything bearable. HAHA.

6. you're beautiful so don't think otherwise. :)

7. shut up, you annoy me.

8. i think you're a slut. but i love you anyway.

9. ah i'm so excited for you! you better make me kwento SOON.

10. ughh i hate you sometimes. you're so loud and mean and inconsiderate and feeling and you always overreact.

11. aw we're close again! i love talking to you, friend.

12. you make me sad sometimes.

13. i'm proud of you, i just hope you never change.

14. i wanted to get close to you too. you were a good friend.

15. you're so talented, i love it that we're friends now.

16. i hope you're okay there, and i hope to see you soon.

17. don't grow up too fast, please?

18. i think you're much too insecure. you know your wrong. so why don't you just forget and forgive?

19. i think about "what if's" every night and it's all because i'm afraid to lose you.

20. fuck off.

mkay, gonna do my notecards now. :D the weather has gone crazy.